Modified: February 10, 2022
persistent hallucination
This page is from my personal notes, and has not been specifically reviewed for public consumption. It might be incomplete, wrong, outdated, or stupid. Caveat lector.In the 5-MeO-DMT trip where I experienced ego death, I saw a magical display of beautiful colors and flowing motion and sparkling as I looked at my plants. And I felt that I should let go of the part of myself that was keeping me from seeing that all the time. Why wouldn't you want to see the world as beautiful all the time? As I was coming down, I tried to accept the changes to my vision as part of my new self, who would see things as more beautiful than my old self. I tried to hold the view in both the meditative and literal sense, without fighting the reality that I was coming down.
Now, a day later, I think I still have some of that view. My vision is normal-ish, but colors seem a tiny bit more vivid, I'm more attuned to transient patterns dancing in shadows. It might be short-lived, but I'm fine with it.