Created: September 12, 2021
Modified: September 12, 2021
Modified: September 12, 2021
living on autopilot
This page is from my personal notes, and has not been specifically reviewed for public consumption. It might be incomplete, wrong, outdated, or stupid. Caveat lector.- Some things are genuinely hard to do. But many others I don't do just out of laziness, or maybe lack of agency. I know that they're worth doing, and that I could do them if I really had to, but I just don't.
- I think part of this is that my sense of possibility feels closed off, maybe from working at a company, maybe from not being around ambitious young people. So even things I rationally know are good ideas don't 'feel' worth doing.
- Examples:
- not seeking out some alternative to twice-weekly therapy with Therapist for the four years. It would have been (and would be) work, and I might not have found the right person immediately, but it would have been worth it and I knew it.